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When Lovely Turn To Enemy Part 1

mm . smp arenh mc x btegur dgn miza . asal engt ap yg dea bwt , msti hati ak saket . sgtsgt . bh , bygkn lh , kme bkwn bkn skjp . byk bnda yg kme bwt shma2 . shpa pn xda yg akn dpt jangka bnda mtcm nh . kena2 ak aggp dea lbe dre skadar kwn sd , ak bwt dea mtcm adik ak . tpe ndtw ngpa bgne dea bwt shma ak . ak btwl2 x tw ap jg dosa ak shma dea . ap yg tmampu ak bwt , ak sggp bwt walaupn mdatangkn kmarahn org laen demi dea . kdg2 th smp ignore my family . tpe nh plaa blasan yg ak dpt akhirnya kn ? pftttt .


Okay , kes nh i guess berat sd bh . rumit lg . let me list all the story down from the start and i just let the readers judge okay ?


I knew her from friendster which is the most popular social network at that moment . she introduced herself as manja's friend . i was not too excited to know her deeper since i didnt really fall for manja . she kept commenting my wall and my photo(s) and i replied it without any intention and just acted as mutual friendster friend like the others .


As i broke up with manja on 2009 , i lost our connection and so do with miza but she had ask me to add her facebook because she do not want to use friendster anymore . The fact is she is the reason why do i have facebook account nowadays . Haha ! Few years ago , facebook was not as popular as now on . Most people tend to connect the world using friendster and yahoo messenger . So i made an account and added her .


Last year , facebook getting popular among the teens and im one of them :) i had forgot that i already add her and suddenly on a night she chatted me and asked me how's my condition . We have our long conversation and she suddenly talked about manja . She told me that she had just found manja's account and give me the link . I added him and he approved me after few minutes and i thought it was like a miracle ! I thanks miza for that . I get reconnected with my exboyfriend that i had love the most .


I loved to keep in touch with her because i thought she was my love angel . So silly huh ? Haha . Okay then we get connected on handphone . Digi campus was so popular and we used to connect each other . We found out we have many similarity which could convey to a closer relationship , more than friend , it is best friend .



However , i have my group , BEIBEH which is my bestbest friend for that moment . So we just close on calling . One day where i just finished hanging out with my group , i went to meet her for the first time . She was with sys tasya and the others . I dont really remember who are the others guys with them . I hye her and went home . Well , she is a happy go lucky lady and you will get used to her in just a minute . So when its come to the next day we hanging out together , im already have so many things to talk and to share .


Our first hang out place is Tanjung Aru . We spent the night with sys tasya , koro and her boyfriend however we didnt follow sys to go back home . Im in relationship with azroy and azroy asked me to go to his room at sinsuran . I decided to go along with miza because i am afraid to sleep with a man . We did not spent the night im the room instead we went out to waterfront . She told me her story included of her family , her boyfriend , exboyfriend maybe ? And manja :)



i love her style . She's very open in any topic . The next day i went home but she stayed still at the town . While i was at tuaran , she asked for help where she need money to stay longer at kk . I want to lend her some money but my mother mad at me since we still new in friendship . My mother also hate her because i repeat my old attitude when im with her . Im not at home every single time im outing with her . So i am shyly ask azroy to lend her some money and i will pay it when we meet .



Time by time , she always ask for topup and she said it is for emergency case . I topuped her only if i was at the town . I dont really care bout it because i always can get money when im with my mother . Everytime i went to the city and met her , i will have to support her and once again my mother get her anger towards me . Did i care ? No . Im sink in her sweet word .



I had a fight with my group on my spm . The only person(s) whom supported me are amiza , nyta and neo . Neo get out of the group earlier than us as he cant stand anylonger in the group . Nyta and miza always asked me to get out of the group at the moment but i try to stand till it comes to our biggest fight with farah . Nyta already out of the group and me too after the fight with farah . However , she sat still in the group and i had nothing to say then . I dont want she thought that i am the trouble maker , i guess she must be thinking that the problem is only between farah and i and she do not have to get out but she is one of people whom talk shit behind farah . Im in mute mode then .



She was at KL and going back KK to celebrate her birthday on December . She said she would held a party which she will pay all the cost . Im not the first person she met when she welcome home but , farah . I acted cool . Okay . On the weekend , we went to KK and no one attend that day . We were searching for any members there and stayed with . What then ? I had finish my money too because she said we should share . Okay . Im mute once again eventhough i know mom would get mad on me later .
But look , why there is no one to attend her party even farah did not . Today we had find out farah asked all people to not attend her birthday party . Nah . Funny huh ?



Few months after my biggest examination , i went to KK and got a job . She was working with farah and im all alone but whenever she need money , she appear in front of me . I gave her some cash money and topup for many times then i had find out she use the topup to keep connecting with pudien . The cash money ? I do not even know :)


she one day want to work at my workplace and i agreed doubtly . I couldnt guarantee she would keep my secret but i tried to trust her . We then live together and i support all her necesscities . We cried together on a night where she lost from my sight and i thought she was following people or been kidnaped . I went down the stair and rounded the building to find her . I went up when i did not see her around and started crying in front of lawson , richard and aunty . Lawson asked me to stop crying and was telling me where have she been . I was so shock to know that she was only in fready's room . I knocked the door which is locked . Fready opened the door and i saw her was sitting on Fready's chair . I just cant stop my tears and went to the toilet . How could she get there , enjoy romancing maybe while im deathly searching for her ? Huh. I just cant believe it . She then came into the toilet and im suddenly hugged her and started to cry . I throw out my anger and told her to tell me wherever she want to go next time . She promised me and we cried together . We promise that our relationship is more than bestfriend , but siblings . We are siblings then . She's became my 1st younger sister since i do not have younger sister .



From that day , i guarded her in whatever she do , wherever she go and whoever she get involved to . I care her if she get drunk , even i would get mad by her , care what she did , control her , protect her from any bad boy . I was doing these honestly because i love her . I was in thought that she is the best friend ever who know all about me .



Okay , i guess this incident is the beginning where she start to show her real attitude up . When she get care less , when she get jealous with because i always get something better than she own . I was in love with a girl , tyty and im getting care like a baby girl . Miza never agree bout our relationship and she always talk about tyty's bad attitude and characteristic . She also told me that tyty was in love with her too and she just couldnt accept her because tyty is a penkid and she did not have any special feeling to her . I am once again get doubt to love . I did not pour all my love in our relationship . However , i cant deny i had fallen 100% in love one day and started ignoring all of her words . Sometimes i was ignoring our time to be together too , i tend to my couple . Somehow , we still alright . We still outing together but she would angry with me if i do not want to follow them but i know the reason why . Tyty wouldnt go along if i was not there and thus , no one would support them . Yeah . I get that well bh :)



i furthered my study in lower six pure science class at Tuaran . Do you know what i was thinking about when i know she was with my girlfriend ? Oh no . I guess you get me . Damn . However i tried to calm my mind down and concentrating on my study till it come to a day where she forced me to let tyty go with them . Okay , here the jealousy , worry , and all became one . I had write a diary bout this night . Here it is ;-


hmm . nhpa mtcm ak mw nangs nh ? btw smlm miza memaksa m'bwa tyty b'jln sdgkn dea dgn membe laen . yg bru dea knl lg th . hm . saket ate ak dgn dea . nd pndae paam perasaan ak , piker dea plenk paam ak , rupa nya x . huh . pasth ak tb2 plaa t'bgn tem tyty txt sbuh tde . late nh dea rep n dea caap dea cll miza utk k'slmtan miza . th ohke lh . but nhpa late rep ? prlu kh b'call lma2 ? damnn bby damn . i feel like crying . kimaaaaaaa . GOD , pls remove ths feeling . i dnt want to fall deeper . hellyea



back to the story , am i wrong for this ? I do not intend to control tyty but could you get me ? Okay . The truth is she just want tyty be there to support them cuz i know her attitude . You will never can mute if you are in my situation . I should angry with her for this but she get mad back to me . Haha . What could i say then ? Yeah , just let my girlfriend go in tears :)



okay . This is worst . Oh not yet . My sister told me she had heard miza was talking to Dem that she want tyty but tyty already owned by me .

When Lovely Turn To Enemy Part 2 .

she somehow ask dem to change tyty to a real woman and tyty seems like dem as well . oh what ? However my sister was not in sober listening to their conversation so i tried to forget it eventhough i'd cry already .



Im went back to tuaran again and it was the last two week i've been there . I quit my study after few days . Actually i just cant separated from my love , i just cant stand it and it is one of the reason why i'd quit . One day on shitty evening , it was on friday where we were calling as usual , she told me that miza told something freak to her on the thursday's night . She was staying at kk till late night with her other friends . She then asked tyty to call her and when they had connected already , she asked tyty to stay with them , she request for something that she couldnt describe through handphone and must be done by face to face . However tyty rejected her request though she was forcing . Later then she suddenly talked about feeling . She asked tyty if she love her or not . Tyty then telling her no and she kept talking bout that issue . She said she would rather want to share tyty with me . OMGGG ! I am really shocked by the moment . It was like my heart been cut without bleeding . I planned to go to Kk on saturday morning but i changed my mind as i heard bout the story . I decided to go to Kk on the same day , few minutes after we were calling .



I feel the biggest betraying was occuring and i do not have any idea what to do next . Should i ask directly to miza what is her intention by doing that stuff or should i just silent ? I dont know . I just wanna reach there as soon as possible . However , i became silent as i arrive . Her lovely attitude made me think there's no problem between us . Huh . I hate myself for not having the courage to ask for the truth .



Everything seems going good . She was still joking between us , as usual . I cant deny the fact that she was used to tyty more than i am . She ll be the first person to sit near , the first to talk to her . I accept that as a common matter since i know it's her job . As thing goes on well , i have no doubt to her though there are a lot of things she done which hurt me . She ll angry to me if i do not want to follow them to go to clubbing or any such activity . She doesnt care bout my condition and keep forcing me with the reason , tyty wouldnt want to go with them without me . Why must tyty go along ? Well , yeah , everyone knows why .



So this is the crap . As usual ,she was forcing me on a night where she want to have some supper late night and i just dont want to go as i get drunk already . Its became the point where we had our terrible fight for the first time . Tyty came into our room and ask me to stop quarreling . I just feel so hot like been fuck up . I grabbed my handbag and get into ernest's car after i talk a little screaming to just go on with the plan to have the supper . I wait for a quite long time then tyty came into the car along . I was not realize yet miza is not there with us till i'd got in sober a little bit . As i realize she's not with us , i getting mad and keep asking ernest to turn back to fetch her . They refuse and tyty was angry to me like hell . I started to cry and situation became terrible where ernest increase the speed as we didnt stop quarreling and we were almost get into the accident . I then stop to cry and just silent untill we arrived at ernest's home . How could i cry for someone like her ? I have no idea bout that hell .



On the early month , we both started to work at office . I was located at Alamesra meanwhile she was at Kk Times Square . I used to go out of the office earlier than her so i'll wait for her at Kk and we go back home together . Things do not goes on as usual when she get a couple . She spent her time after work with her boyfriend . She always asked me to cheat aunty why she was there lately . As usual , on a day where i went out of office , i texted her but i did not get any respon . I was thinking that she might have some work to do . As i arrived at Kk , i called and again but she did not pick my call up . By the moment , i was texting with tyty and i told tyty im going home alone so she decided to call miza and in just once , her call get pick up by miza . Oh what the ? Okay . She then asked miza why she did not pick my call up and she answered that she just heard the ringing tone and no fodr the previous time . Oh , okay . I was really getting my mind fuck up and send her text that i wont want to care about her anymore .



Later that night , i was on calling with tyty and we were talking bout her . Tyty made a hypothesis that miza acting weird after tyty and i get couple because she love one of us . I was then thinking and it is impossible if she had love me before because we were friend for such a long time and she is STRAIGHT . Huh . As i remember that tyty's friend , fendy has ever told us that miza want tyty . He knews it from her body language . Oh hell , this is just hell . When i was taking back the previous moment where she did not like tyty at all at first , i prefer only 1 word for her , she want tyty for MONEY? . erh . okay . What else ? She was keep telling me that tyty do not suit me at first . She is not much cute , tall , and thin . So why she still want tyty ? Urgghhh . As i spinned my memory to the pass , i realize there are so many things she did like she want tyty . Omggg .



So that night i try to quest for Lyn's opinion . She told me that the night where i was quarreling with miza , she had backstab me after im gone . She told Lyn that i become worst day by day . My responsibility is to turn tyty to a better human but i turn her to worst . And thing that i just cant believe where she said i just want tyty's money , i was manipulating her . This is really nonsense . She knows me deeper than others . She knows how i am , how i used to be so why did she talk like that ? I was really broken down , my heart turn into pieces as i heard bout that . I thought she is the one who understand me , knows me well . I thought she will always be kind towards me , eventhough she always cheating people , i never thought she was cheating me too . What had i done ? Did i ever hurt her before ? Or maybe i have lied her before ? Or she just dont like to see people's pleasure ? Ohmannn . I never thought she would cheating on me like she did to the others . I lost my friend again :))



nowadays , we do not talking to each other for almost half month though we are in a house . I do not talk bout the issue yet . I want she to ask me first bout this . I want she realize her mistake herself . How bout she going to ? Well , i might have to forgive her but we wont be friend anymore . She do not deserve to be my friend and same goes to tyty . I wont let her to be friend with tyty . I might had forgive but it is impossible to forget all the crap she had done . Today ? And tommorow will never be the same as yesterday . I am not that kind person to just forget completely the tragis scene .

Lesbian ?

i dont know what is my intention to write bout this issue . it was flying in my mind out of the blue . well , lets start .




LESBIAN . Okay . At first , im admit that im one of them . But i dont write based on my own experience or to put myself as a lesbian on the right place but just to share with all of you guys . When we listen to this word for the first time , we do not get any good first impression bout it . We might feel like , 'yuckks !' . So do i when im firstly get loved by a pengkid . I might share some of my experience here .




I never thought that i would involve in this unstraight relationship . I still remember i stand my stance that i hate this kind of relationship . Last year , there is a pengkid whom attracted to me . Coincidently , her school is just nearby my mom's shop and she always go to our shop . When she already got my number phone , she told me what she really feel towards me in just a few days after our first text . She get the rejection since i really dont like her eventhough she is really cute and charming and i dont even have any boyfriend that time . I feel annoyed to see her face after the day of confession .



When i already finish my study , im going to work and once more , the situation happen . I have a boyfriend in that moment and i am faithful toward him since i thought so do him . When i first meet with this girl , im firstly thought she is just tomboy on her personality since she came to my workplace paired each other , 2 girls and 2 boys . However , i noticed one day that she admire me and i dont believe it at all till it came to our first kissing . She kissed me and i didnt get mad . I dont even get any idea until now why did i reacted . Since that day we became closer and now we've been couple for almost 3months .



Okay , look . I really hate lesbian before but how could i fallen for her ? Well , i accept her couple request not because of who she is or what she have . Before we comfirm our relationship , we already done things that a couple did . Okay , i know that lesbian issue already spreaded onto our whole world i guess . However , it is still an illegal relationship especially in Islam . I ever been in this thougt while kissing her . Look , i can still thinking rasionally so im really know what im doing . Let we see , we know that killing people is wrong . However , there are a lot of criminal casses occur right now and most of the assasin are completely normal and can still thinking rasionally . So what do you guys guess what is the reason they did it ? I have to admit that the biggest reason is caused by PASSION .



How bout lesbian issue ? Yes , it is one of it . Other than that ? Maybe they really had falling in love with their partners . It might be real , the feeling might so strong and so do i . However , note this point . We know that the relationship wont everlasting . They love their partner eventhough they know what is their ending . Should we call it true love ? NO . Look , they love their partner even they will have to separate soon , so the love left in theirselves aint real . I might say the passion affecting the relationship , the love , their feelings . In a straight relationship , i cant deny passion still around them . However , they got the reason to still loving each other since they know that they can end their relationship by get married . They holding to the intention of coupling , but not for a lesbian partner . They know the ending of the story so they still loving just to complete their passion . Could you get me ?



Okay , as i said before , im one of them and thats why i guess i have my right to talk bout this issue . I have to admit it because me myself still not sure bot this . However , by making some kind of confession , i had realize . What about me ? Yeah , honestly i really love my couple and i love to be by her side . I have no reason to love her . Just love , did you people get me ? Passion ? Yeah . I admit that it is around us . Well guys , i cant write anylonger since i got my eyes heavy already . This issue still not finish yet . We continue when i already get more info yeah ? Kbai :)



her name is hazel

freak of me , HAHAHAHA !

double trouble .

kmaren dl ak b'trouble shma chelsea . bru ak dpt tw rupany tem bday ak d room th , dea ad pg kisx c tyty . yealh . ak tw jg dorg kwn lama , ak tw lh c chel th ppuan jg . tpe , x kn kwn pn mw kisx bgth . dea just quan ? yeah . th lge lh bodo . dea kwn lma c tyty , dea tw minat c tyty shma shpj . bongo jg dea kdg2 nh . kimaa . tpe , ap pn sd sttle mlm th . but mc lge dea x rhsa yg dea salah . tpe ak pdule ap , kalw mmg t'bukti slh , mste maaf and fnaly dea mnta maaf jg dgn tyty n ak . WTH .



tem minum plaa ak blek2 kena mrh , smua lh isu t'kluar . yg dgr smua th ak . bkn org laen . so ak memanas sndre . smp d umah ak merungut , ak caap , IF C CHEL X BWT HAL NH , X LH AK KENA MRH TDE . X LH TYTY MBUK SMP GTH . nd pasl2 c miza caap , AH , KW NH CKET2 KC SLH C CHEL . KALW SD TH SD LH BH . naa . matae . dea x fhm bh mtcm mn ak rhsa pas dgr smua yg tyty caap shma ak . ak caap lh yg dea th supot c chel then dea caap x . dea caap walau mtcm mn pn ak bwt , walaupn ak btwl , kwn2 tyty mmg supot c chel . ap pn yg ak bwt tetap slh ,tetap buruk d mata dorg . pasl ap , pasl ak mw c tyty dgr caap ak seja . HEYHEY . jgn caap mtcm x pena b'coup lh kaan . dlm coup mmg kna dgr caap psgn , tpe x smstinya mengontrol . bherr . then miza caap lge , dorg smua just b'talam dua muka dgn ak . oh WTH . nangs bh ak dgr bnda2 gth . ak tnya miza mtcm mn dea tw , then dea caap tem d bwh , bru dea saiko cket , sd kuar suma dre mulut dorg . ap lh th ?



bsokny ak hmpr mw break dgn tyty . ap lh guna kalw kme mati2 m'ptahankn hbgn kme , tpe org2 d skeliling kme x kn ? naa . but bla pikerkn yg bnda c miza caap th blm kmpem , kme wait lh ap yg dea akn bgtw . bla ak tnya miza pas dea bgn , dea ndmw sd keno caap pasl th . kena pksa pn x mw caap . btwl2 biken spoil eh . biken hambar hbgn kme . tpe kme bwt besa je lh . x mw hbgn kme retak d saabkn hal gth . hmmm . .



hands by , her name is hazel .

playing pool , snapped by miza last night

love and suffering .

she always flying in my mind . i can stil feel the taste love .

But to realize that seems everyone doesn't like our relationship , i feel weak and weaker .

Am i wrong or their jealousy ?

Guys , i never expect too much from her . i just need her . i love to be by her side . i love all bout her .

i never planned to seperate she and her friends . but almost all of her friends did hurt me by their attitude . i never want it at all , but for nuw , i guess i should stand stronger so i could solicid the courage to protect myself . if necessary , i will eliminate all of them . swear .


just finish my shower . bidaa . haha

Having Lunch With Love and The Others ;)

Date : 22/06/2011
Time : Around 12.31
Place : Putatan



tem pge2 my love tnya i dh maam kh blm , then i caap x mw maam maggie c miza beli saab x sedap . then bila dea tnya mw maam ap , i jwb mw maam KFC gn dea . Miahahaha . fes2 th b'snap dl d jejantas dkt KFC th . mtcm besa , miza lh plenk byk pix dea :D


My Snapshot



--> Miza






--> Miza & Lea





--> Me and Love at KFC


and at the edn , she kiss my cheek :D hho . jgn jeles ~



My Snapshot At Home b4 Write This :)))



--> Intro ? Hha !




--> uhhh . bidaa kaan ?




--> ad org msukk japp .





--> xda org sd terus b'gete . hha !







act byk lge pixca tem nh . tpe i bwt simple jerr cnh . nant u all tgk kat fb lh yerr :))) :D

crap !!!

haih . down ak bgnh tw . at first ohkk2 seja kme b'txt . tpe neo tb2 suruh ak cll mw infrm ak pasal vacancy . ngam2 tyty cl jg tem th . bgs2 sd cnference , dea kc mati . ak kc cnnct spya dea x piker bkn2 . tpe last2 , kme t'b'gaduh gara2 th seja . hell pui . kimaaaa . ohkk lh . ndmw jg mengasih bsr prblm . yg ak tw , ak down b'abes nh . i fuck people . bodo . mampus lh .



Ak rhsa mtcm mw jde pk . mw plaa ak rhsa mtcm mn b'coup dgn ladies nh . slama nh if ad org tny knp ak mw coup dgn kaum sjnis , ak caap saab kme saling memahami . tpe kenyataannya , TIDAK . so , mw plaa ak m'test nh . kimaaa . ohh ladies . . come closer and move ur boobs towards me , shake ur hips and naked urself . oh mannn . gilaaa sd ak . ya ampun . GOD ? budu lh kw zel . tem swsah ja kw piker tuhan th . bgs jgn . anjingnya perangai . matae . .



Well , tde boby cll ak . sweet nya suara dea . ntah ap angin dea . bsing mulut dea menanya itu ini . hapy th hapy jg , tpe , ak lbe b'syukur saab ak xda feeling sd shma dea . x t'sntuh pn tem dea b'caap tde . aha .




Heyhey , my name is hazel !

When heart truthfully spoken .

I love u . i've got nothing else to impress what i really am . i mish u and and i really am . i mish all about u . i mish ur cooly eyes , ur sweet smells , ur calming smile , ur passionate touch , ur soft kiss , ur hot hug , yeah . i love em . this is my first love story . i really hope this would be d last as well . be with you is just like being in heaven where the comfort is around me all the time . i just cant kill my tears when u suddenly moody towards me cz i am really weak . i know that i shouldn't to , this is just too wrong . yeah . completely wrong . at first , i guess everything would be alright . but i'd never thought this love would qonquer my whole life . i am now live with the reason to continue to love u and if there's no u anymore , that's mean i should end my life . babe , i'd walk in too far and there's no turning back and me myself dont really wish for the turning . babe , why when i love u i get hurted ? to know that u wont be mine for eternal is so dividing my heart into pieces . everything i do reminds me of u . i hate it when u tryna test my heart , omgg . u already know how hard i had fallen for u but u still like a fool ? man . . i hate u for treatin me like a kid , u bitch . uh ! i love u idiot :/ !

last ak out mlm mggu 2 and trouble bla bdk suluk yg trep bdk smbulan th pg attack dem and pudien tb2 . haih . sd lh dre tem d room lge ak xda mud. kimaa nya .


Ak mw berenti nh . mw berenti ! berenti sch .