i dont know what is my intention to write bout this issue . it was flying in my mind out of the blue . well , lets start .
LESBIAN . Okay . At first , im admit that im one of them . But i dont write based on my own experience or to put myself as a lesbian on the right place but just to share with all of you guys . When we listen to this word for the first time , we do not get any good first impression bout it . We might feel like , 'yuckks !' . So do i when im firstly get loved by a pengkid . I might share some of my experience here .
I never thought that i would involve in this unstraight relationship . I still remember i stand my stance that i hate this kind of relationship . Last year , there is a pengkid whom attracted to me . Coincidently , her school is just nearby my mom's shop and she always go to our shop . When she already got my number phone , she told me what she really feel towards me in just a few days after our first text . She get the rejection since i really dont like her eventhough she is really cute and charming and i dont even have any boyfriend that time . I feel annoyed to see her face after the day of confession .
When i already finish my study , im going to work and once more , the situation happen . I have a boyfriend in that moment and i am faithful toward him since i thought so do him . When i first meet with this girl , im firstly thought she is just tomboy on her personality since she came to my workplace paired each other , 2 girls and 2 boys . However , i noticed one day that she admire me and i dont believe it at all till it came to our first kissing . She kissed me and i didnt get mad . I dont even get any idea until now why did i reacted . Since that day we became closer and now we've been couple for almost 3months .
Okay , look . I really hate lesbian before but how could i fallen for her ? Well , i accept her couple request not because of who she is or what she have . Before we comfirm our relationship , we already done things that a couple did . Okay , i know that lesbian issue already spreaded onto our whole world i guess . However , it is still an illegal relationship especially in Islam . I ever been in this thougt while kissing her . Look , i can still thinking rasionally so im really know what im doing . Let we see , we know that killing people is wrong . However , there are a lot of criminal casses occur right now and most of the assasin are completely normal and can still thinking rasionally . So what do you guys guess what is the reason they did it ? I have to admit that the biggest reason is caused by PASSION .
How bout lesbian issue ? Yes , it is one of it . Other than that ? Maybe they really had falling in love with their partners . It might be real , the feeling might so strong and so do i . However , note this point . We know that the relationship wont everlasting . They love their partner eventhough they know what is their ending . Should we call it true love ? NO . Look , they love their partner even they will have to separate soon , so the love left in theirselves aint real . I might say the passion affecting the relationship , the love , their feelings . In a straight relationship , i cant deny passion still around them . However , they got the reason to still loving each other since they know that they can end their relationship by get married . They holding to the intention of coupling , but not for a lesbian partner . They know the ending of the story so they still loving just to complete their passion . Could you get me ?
Okay , as i said before , im one of them and thats why i guess i have my right to talk bout this issue . I have to admit it because me myself still not sure bot this . However , by making some kind of confession , i had realize . What about me ? Yeah , honestly i really love my couple and i love to be by her side . I have no reason to love her . Just love , did you people get me ? Passion ? Yeah . I admit that it is around us . Well guys , i cant write anylonger since i got my eyes heavy already . This issue still not finish yet . We continue when i already get more info yeah ? Kbai :)
her name is hazel
freak of me , HAHAHAHA !
This Is All About Me . My Daily Life . Im Rather To Post More Private Things On My Blog Than On My Fb . So Everything You Had Read , Just Shut Ur Mouth Off ;)
7/25/2011
7/20/2011
double trouble .
kmaren dl ak b'trouble shma chelsea . bru ak dpt tw rupany tem bday ak d room th , dea ad pg kisx c tyty . yealh . ak tw jg dorg kwn lama , ak tw lh c chel th ppuan jg . tpe , x kn kwn pn mw kisx bgth . dea just quan ? yeah . th lge lh bodo . dea kwn lma c tyty , dea tw minat c tyty shma shpj . bongo jg dea kdg2 nh . kimaa . tpe , ap pn sd sttle mlm th . but mc lge dea x rhsa yg dea salah . tpe ak pdule ap , kalw mmg t'bukti slh , mste maaf and fnaly dea mnta maaf jg dgn tyty n ak . WTH .
tem minum plaa ak blek2 kena mrh , smua lh isu t'kluar . yg dgr smua th ak . bkn org laen . so ak memanas sndre . smp d umah ak merungut , ak caap , IF C CHEL X BWT HAL NH , X LH AK KENA MRH TDE . X LH TYTY MBUK SMP GTH . nd pasl2 c miza caap , AH , KW NH CKET2 KC SLH C CHEL . KALW SD TH SD LH BH . naa . matae . dea x fhm bh mtcm mn ak rhsa pas dgr smua yg tyty caap shma ak . ak caap lh yg dea th supot c chel then dea caap x . dea caap walau mtcm mn pn ak bwt , walaupn ak btwl , kwn2 tyty mmg supot c chel . ap pn yg ak bwt tetap slh ,tetap buruk d mata dorg . pasl ap , pasl ak mw c tyty dgr caap ak seja . HEYHEY . jgn caap mtcm x pena b'coup lh kaan . dlm coup mmg kna dgr caap psgn , tpe x smstinya mengontrol . bherr . then miza caap lge , dorg smua just b'talam dua muka dgn ak . oh WTH . nangs bh ak dgr bnda2 gth . ak tnya miza mtcm mn dea tw , then dea caap tem d bwh , bru dea saiko cket , sd kuar suma dre mulut dorg . ap lh th ?
bsokny ak hmpr mw break dgn tyty . ap lh guna kalw kme mati2 m'ptahankn hbgn kme , tpe org2 d skeliling kme x kn ? naa . but bla pikerkn yg bnda c miza caap th blm kmpem , kme wait lh ap yg dea akn bgtw . bla ak tnya miza pas dea bgn , dea ndmw sd keno caap pasl th . kena pksa pn x mw caap . btwl2 biken spoil eh . biken hambar hbgn kme . tpe kme bwt besa je lh . x mw hbgn kme retak d saabkn hal gth . hmmm . .
hands by , her name is hazel .
playing pool , snapped by miza last night
tem minum plaa ak blek2 kena mrh , smua lh isu t'kluar . yg dgr smua th ak . bkn org laen . so ak memanas sndre . smp d umah ak merungut , ak caap , IF C CHEL X BWT HAL NH , X LH AK KENA MRH TDE . X LH TYTY MBUK SMP GTH . nd pasl2 c miza caap , AH , KW NH CKET2 KC SLH C CHEL . KALW SD TH SD LH BH . naa . matae . dea x fhm bh mtcm mn ak rhsa pas dgr smua yg tyty caap shma ak . ak caap lh yg dea th supot c chel then dea caap x . dea caap walau mtcm mn pn ak bwt , walaupn ak btwl , kwn2 tyty mmg supot c chel . ap pn yg ak bwt tetap slh ,tetap buruk d mata dorg . pasl ap , pasl ak mw c tyty dgr caap ak seja . HEYHEY . jgn caap mtcm x pena b'coup lh kaan . dlm coup mmg kna dgr caap psgn , tpe x smstinya mengontrol . bherr . then miza caap lge , dorg smua just b'talam dua muka dgn ak . oh WTH . nangs bh ak dgr bnda2 gth . ak tnya miza mtcm mn dea tw , then dea caap tem d bwh , bru dea saiko cket , sd kuar suma dre mulut dorg . ap lh th ?
bsokny ak hmpr mw break dgn tyty . ap lh guna kalw kme mati2 m'ptahankn hbgn kme , tpe org2 d skeliling kme x kn ? naa . but bla pikerkn yg bnda c miza caap th blm kmpem , kme wait lh ap yg dea akn bgtw . bla ak tnya miza pas dea bgn , dea ndmw sd keno caap pasl th . kena pksa pn x mw caap . btwl2 biken spoil eh . biken hambar hbgn kme . tpe kme bwt besa je lh . x mw hbgn kme retak d saabkn hal gth . hmmm . .
hands by , her name is hazel .
playing pool , snapped by miza last night
7/18/2011
love and suffering .
she always flying in my mind . i can stil feel the taste love .
But to realize that seems everyone doesn't like our relationship , i feel weak and weaker .
Am i wrong or their jealousy ?
Guys , i never expect too much from her . i just need her . i love to be by her side . i love all bout her .
i never planned to seperate she and her friends . but almost all of her friends did hurt me by their attitude . i never want it at all , but for nuw , i guess i should stand stronger so i could solicid the courage to protect myself . if necessary , i will eliminate all of them . swear .
just finish my shower . bidaa . haha
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